The Belated Decision

So long I've been wanting to take that decision..feels so strange to actually take it.Ever since january and I meant to make up my mind about leaving eSpace for good, and for silly reasons or may b rational ones-i'm still not sure-I satyed.

Today is considered to b my 2nd anniversary at espace, feels like yesterday that I first got this phone call from my favourite Inass anouncing that I got my offer..how excited I was?!! I can never put into phrases..I can even feel the thrill of that day..I remember how happy I was at that moment. Yet it wasn't an easy ride, lots of moments I doubted myself..many times I've wondered do I blend in?..am I good enough for the job?!Surely getting bad evaulations didn't answer that intriguing questions, but it pushed me to see where I went wrong.

I'm grateful to God for meeting such great people who truely care for my best, whom I'll always remember with the good, tough, under-pressure moments where the actual side of people prevails.Sadly, I've lost something in that place which unfortunately can't be reacquired..I lost my trust in people but on the other hand I regained my self-trust which is priceless :)

I gained alot by being around such great minded people, I gained alot form listening to them..hope that I'll utilize that experience in my daily work outside.

You guys & girls mean alot to me, God knows how much..I somehow never hoped to take that decision,but it kinda spotlighted how dear I am to u..I needed to feel this I'm afraid.

Somtimes in this life you have to take some decision that u might feel at heart is wrong for u. However u do it for the sake of change for the sake of escaping misjustice. Hope u'll always support me & wish me success wherever I may end at.

I'll b missing u dearly.

How could this happen to Sue?!

So it happened to Sue
So she'll do all it takes
She'll accept how it turned to be
She just won't run anywhere
Cos this is all she's worth
It can't get any worse
So it happened to Sue
Better wake up
Accept her life like this
So it happened to Sue
How bad could it get to be

in reference to "How could this happen to me?!" for "Simple plan".

Clearing the dust

Today I cleared the dust pilled over my guitar, played some lullabies..felt like the old days with my old guitar lessons, I miss those days. I was only 18, wish I could also clear the dust cramming over me since then.

Someone reminded me of the beauty of the guitar music so i'm grateful, it's so relaxing specially when i go driving around listening.

May b i'll go back to my lessons at the conservatoir..I should take this seriously.

My 10 Golden Rules in Life

You know when u go around in life searching for ur own theory and conception,here's mine..it's not in that order or in that priority and i'm sure as life goeson i'll b adding to those rules...it'll never be a complete theory u see.

#1 Never compromise..Never sacrifice..you r all u've got
Always think of third alternatives..think win/win.

#2 "El Reddaah" since u r living ur life either way..so live it satisfied.Have a very strong faith that whatever's going on is for ur own good and too bad u can't see it clearly yet, u eventually will.

#3 Expect the least, never the best
If u got the best then yaay rejoice and feel happy, if you got the least then u expected it already.No disappointments.

#4 You owe people nothing..You owe urself everything

#5 There are absolutely no constants in life
everything is prone to changes..there's no "forever".

#6 Sadness is a waste of time make ur own happiness, instigate it even."The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything, they make the best of everything that comes along their way".

#7 Never under estimate urself
If people can't see how great you are then the joke is on them.

#8 "Seek first to understand than to be understood" (Steven R Covey)
Listen carefully understand throughly b4 u expect people to listen to you.Reach out to people b4 they ever think of reaching back to you.

#9 Don't hide inside ur shell for long
cos people & life will miss u.If the shell is protecting u, it's blocking others from understanding u.You can run to ur shell at hard times but don't stay there for long.

#10 Never Ever think that you got everything & that you knew it all.Learn from ur mistakes.."Experience is what u get when u were expecting something else".Keep on learning from life.

It's one of these days

It's one of these days when I don't want to talk to anyone or even hear anyone speak, so I thought of coming home to my blog.

It's been a while since i've last written something, many events happened some few happy moments, ofcourse the shortest amongest the other events, but the most important one is NagNag, my bro, getting his masters degree..I'm so proud of him I don't think i'll get to be any prouder..may be when he gets his PHD degree isA..that brings us to what i've been dreading for so long..i'm dreading his departure.

Things won't be the same when he leaves, more troubles expected ofcourse..more than the current daily down heartning encounters I keep facing, coming to be a habit actually!!

I wish I could black out for a year or so just dreamless sleep, the thought enough is so relieving.

So bring it on life, i haven't seen ur worse yet..I'll be standing right here on my twos

Mind ur own figure!!

I just hate it when people pass these comments upon how thin I am, it seems like an imperative piece of talk in any conversation. Actually in any open family gatherings when my parents got nothing to say they direct the whole talk towards my figure!!!

Why do people get so frenzy about me getting fatter?!..like there's not enough fat people in the world to begin with and by the way for your knowledge people I do like my figure and yes i'm aware that i'm skinny even. Furthermore, who could possibly go thru what i've been thru & still got an appetite for nutrition?.

So next time anyone throws a comment on my figure, I'll look him/her in the eye and say "Please, mind ur own figure".

"WHO" does "WHAT" EXACTLY?

I face that problem at work, I always discuss it with my team memebers as well as managers.Why can't we have a clear role assignment?!. In my opinion it'll save us alot of time and won't over pressure people in expense of others which will eventually lead to higher productivity.

Why don't we apply significant role assingement?, One of the argument was that it's much fasterto do it myself!. Is that a good argument?!

For example why would I as a developer answer the phone?!, why would a financial manger do an hr job?!why would a manger do an administrator job?!

Can u see where I'm heading..this is Chaos people!!!..If it will take a longer time for the right assinged pesonnel to do his job than if you do it urself, then may b we need to reassign jobs in a more efficient way.

I'll call it the "who does what syndrome?!". It'll lead to lots of pressure on youif you r doing ur own tasks subsided by other tasks that others should do. The bigger problem is that the assigned people for that task would take ur voluntary action as a regular thing and at the end of the road you will find urself doing "everything" urself.

Now was that a good argument after all?!