Haunted

It just hit me, I got no one I can truly trust & be open to like I used to. I used to have many friends and very unique & close friends, now I got no one. It might be my mistake by shutting people out, but the thing is, I fear misplacing my trust.

It's true that life is like a train, there'll always be friends jumping on board & friends jumping out. Those friends might appear to b with u & guide you through a small life trip & then take off giving the chance to other friends.
Currently my train is empty. Now that I need it to be full of friends.

I'm haunted by the idea that I mean nothing to all those friends who jumped off my train.
I'm haunted by the fact that there's a certain closure I need so much, but there's no hope of getting it. I've tried before, but each time i take a step, I decline. Hindered by the thought that I meant nothing.
There's no way of knowing unless you put urself on the line, exposing ur hurt feelings & asking the ultimate question, well you all know it.

I'm just haunted, I do need someone to jump on board my train soon

My Worst Fear

When u fail ur dreams & they never come true, would u change ur dreams? or try harder?
I chose to try harder. I just hope I won't end up wasting all my life behind a false dream.

Animal shelter

If you know an animal shelter here in Egypt, please tell me. I really need to find one.

My very own Webcast

Here's a link for my very own webcast:
webcast.bibalex.org

Hope it's an addition to bibalex.
P.S: better use IE, you need to download media player plugin & besides I disabled some features in firefox.

Disappointed

Disappointments have their grief moments then turn into a laugh among friends who witnessed them.
So to sum up disappointments are actually future jokes to tell.

Man Of The Year

I loved that movie so much, it's a comedy film apparently with some good political views. I liked spotting the light on the fact that the american president became a commercial material that can b bought by fuel tycoons or bankers.

I loved Robin Williams saying: "If u don't want the American flag to b burned by angry people, make the flag out of asbestos."

Politicians r like diapers need to be changed for the same reason diapers needs to b changed.

My Situation

This is Exactly how I feel these days, too scared to take a move which will probably take me down.

It's from the new animated movie "Horton hears a who".