A Bibler for a week now

I spent the last week being a new bibler(a term I invented-don't look it up- it stands for a member of bibliotheca alexandrina).

So being a bibler is not that bad so far, I'm handling some minor tasks, been making a customized menu using ASP.NET trying to introduce AJAX, seems the biblers are a bit behind. However, they keep a good clean code by having their conventions and rules, I admired their documentation actually.

I'm trying to b active but it's getting hard since my team is in a bored up mood.. I was hoping for a very enthusiastic team but I guess I shoud try even harder to cause a change.

One drawback is me waking up early each morning, I get so cranky like a small baby waking up from her nap but my mood lifts up during the day.

I hope I can continue on projects of my own besides being a bibler, I do miss my old co-workers yet I'm moving on thank God.

I Closed the door..

I closed eSpace door stood there for a moment and now all I can think of is the new door I'm opening. I hope behind it I'll find lots of achievements and all my aspiration.

Farewell eSpace..

Not Going To n Going To

I'm not going to b another flow in a pattern, I'm going to b a cause for a change.

I'm not going to follow rules blindly, I'm going to make the rules suit me.

I'm not going to stand my ground, I'm going to follow small steps along an improvement path.

I'm not going to bypass my faults and errors, I'm going to put them right in front of me.

I'm not going to lend myself to sadness, I'm going to make my own happiness by achieving higher immaterial goals.

Queen Rania..A Royal Modesty

I recently enjoyed watching queen Rania of Jordan on Oprah show. She promoted modesty and the bank of good intentions idea. All that remains are your good deeds in this life and if you managed to help or aid someone then ur good intention will remain long afterwards.

I liked her reply when she was asked if she teaches her son how to be a king, she replied: "no, not all he's only 12 and what's important for him now is to get real and live his own age, not being treated any differently..He should tidy his bed, be close to reality".

I think this goes for everyone not just royality members, don't let ur head spin with the glamour of what u own, no matter how majestic or one of a kind things u possess.

I hope these are things she truely belives in. May God guides her to the righteous path for the sake of prosperity for her people.

The Belated Decision

So long I've been wanting to take that decision..feels so strange to actually take it.Ever since january and I meant to make up my mind about leaving eSpace for good, and for silly reasons or may b rational ones-i'm still not sure-I satyed.

Today is considered to b my 2nd anniversary at espace, feels like yesterday that I first got this phone call from my favourite Inass anouncing that I got my offer..how excited I was?!! I can never put into phrases..I can even feel the thrill of that day..I remember how happy I was at that moment. Yet it wasn't an easy ride, lots of moments I doubted myself..many times I've wondered do I blend in?..am I good enough for the job?!Surely getting bad evaulations didn't answer that intriguing questions, but it pushed me to see where I went wrong.

I'm grateful to God for meeting such great people who truely care for my best, whom I'll always remember with the good, tough, under-pressure moments where the actual side of people prevails.Sadly, I've lost something in that place which unfortunately can't be reacquired..I lost my trust in people but on the other hand I regained my self-trust which is priceless :)

I gained alot by being around such great minded people, I gained alot form listening to them..hope that I'll utilize that experience in my daily work outside.

You guys & girls mean alot to me, God knows how much..I somehow never hoped to take that decision,but it kinda spotlighted how dear I am to u..I needed to feel this I'm afraid.

Somtimes in this life you have to take some decision that u might feel at heart is wrong for u. However u do it for the sake of change for the sake of escaping misjustice. Hope u'll always support me & wish me success wherever I may end at.

I'll b missing u dearly.

How could this happen to Sue?!

So it happened to Sue
So she'll do all it takes
She'll accept how it turned to be
She just won't run anywhere
Cos this is all she's worth
It can't get any worse
So it happened to Sue
Better wake up
Accept her life like this
So it happened to Sue
How bad could it get to be

in reference to "How could this happen to me?!" for "Simple plan".

Clearing the dust

Today I cleared the dust pilled over my guitar, played some lullabies..felt like the old days with my old guitar lessons, I miss those days. I was only 18, wish I could also clear the dust cramming over me since then.

Someone reminded me of the beauty of the guitar music so i'm grateful, it's so relaxing specially when i go driving around listening.

May b i'll go back to my lessons at the conservatoir..I should take this seriously.