My 2007 Resolution

To sum up 2007 major events for me & people around me:

- I moved to bibalex even though i never thought I would, even in my interview I acted like I'm not interested.
- one of my ex-coworkers passed away (ra7emaho Allah)
- one of ex-coworkers received God's greatest gift..an offspring
strange how one life has ended & another has started.
- I lost one of my used to be best friends
- I gained the friendship of new kind people
(again the loss & the gain)
- I've been to USA, first time to feel fully independent.
- Currently I'm missing that freedom feeling.
- I started my master's..pray for me, it's getting tougher.
- Somehow I lost a part of me in eSpace & till now there's no gain.
I miss my days there actually, sometimes u can find me yearning to my old team.
- I started watching Prison Break :), i'm a big fan lol.
- Finally Harry Potter came to an end, didn't like the last book.

most important readings:
- The Kite Runner
- Oscar Wild Poems
- Awaken the giant within

Sub7an mo3'Ayer el 7al.... dawam el 7al men al mo7al
I wonder what my next year resolution 'd be, or may b i won't live to write it..who knows?!

I pray that by next year I'd b closer to God & full of hope & ambition.

Being Patient Vs Taking Action

Patience to me is when you keep tolerating a situation having a strong faith that something better is coming, these days I see it as weakness more than being righteous. It is a feeling of a built self-humiliation. People think that since you are patient that means you are too weak to stand for yourself, or may be cos you don't have a way out, you got no other option than Patience..back to that word I'm starting to hate so much.

Sometimes you can tolerate situations that break your soul bit by bit each day till you feel it will eat you alive, that's when you realize taking action is mandatory.

I don't want to be patient anymore, I want to build some courage to take some big steps. I don't think that anyone would believe that taking action questions my faith or anything. The star question now is when & how "big question mark".

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A Prayer

Today I'm mourning a very good person I met in this life, an ex-coworker & a friend.
Please whoever read this please pray for Ahmed Abd el Aal, pray that God forgives him & that God bestows patience upon his family
I remember how great a person he was, I remember the little things, I remember how he used to cheer me up by playing games of minesweeper, I remember how he used to let me win............I remember a lot of things & I won't forget a lot of times he's been there for me.
Pray for a good person who left this sad life for a better one isA.
اللهم اسكنه فسيح جناتك
انا لله و انا اليه راجعون

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And I Cook!!

Yesss, I cooked people. I made my very own first French Toast..all me. And to my amazement it tasted really delicious!!
I wasa afraid it might taste all eggy, but it didn't. I even added some cinammon & ate it with jam..yummy!
So all those who said I'll never learn how to cook, this is a hit to ur face :P
I'm over now asking people to make me breakfast, i'm all grown up :D

Borders

Borders is the name of the store i liked so much, it's easy to guess what that store sells actually. Nope, not clothes nor perfume nor make-up :P
Borders sells books :), I spent a lot of my mornings in California in that store voyaging through book shelves.

Yeah sure I checked the IT book sections & found all Agile & Ruby on Rails books. I spent a lot of time even at the children book sections. I miss that store.

I think if anyone thought of a perfect gift to present to me that'd b a book.
Actually it's like a family tradition in my family, whenever u love someone u should share ur books with him. My uncle gave me a very rare edition for Tom Sawyer as a present, now that was a real nice gift. I think I might give it back to Teeta, may b when she grows up & stop making stories about Dumbo the elephant :).

How USA changed me?

I should be writing a lot of blog entries related to my visit to California. The greatest thing that I really noticed & liked is that the people are non Judgmental. Being raised in a judgmental society makes it hard for me to change that trait.

So from now on I won't judge people. I won't comment on how people talk or walk or even their beliefs. That's how USA changed me.

The Insatiable ME

It's true, I admit it. I'm insatiable no doubt now. Nothing in this life seems to make me happy. I should really start looking for a good answer for my most important question: "what makes Sahar happy?".
Tough one, seems I've been going in circles for a long while. I wish life would b simpler.
Ramadan is coming that should make me happy, I can't wait for this great month to start may b I'll find my answer being closer to God.
"اللهم بلغنا رمضان"